Run Forrest, run!

Since I have started looking for a job my general behavior has been looking very similar to this of the presented antelope. It has never been as visible as is now. I started a billion parallel activities but I am not efficient and persistent in doing it. I will not write about finishing.

Let me list some of them:

• Full time job - only one item here on which I am focused enough. The problem is that it is not my goal.
• PhD studies - now I am focused also here, but not on scientific work which interests me the most. I have classes with students, lectures, seminars.
• Financial markets/investment - both education and practice.
• On-line game - shame on me, but I am playing a game via browser since the first year of my studies. I had a three, one year long breaks, but I am still playing. Now it is time I ended this once and for all. (Fortunately game quality is getting worse and worse).
• Every-week beer with friends - it should be a positive activity, but I am too tired to drink such big volumes of alcohol. I do not know what their reaction would be. I do not know if I will be persistent enough in my decision as well.
• Reading - "Islands in the Stream" should have been my great return to reading classics of world literature. Pathetic progress.
• Reading, listening, watching movies about life design, alternative sources of income. I made categorical decision to spend less time on it. I spend plenty still.
• Running, working on a gym, cycling, swimming - some, sometimes, rarely.
• Looking for a business opportunity - every time I have some free time while walking, cycling, doing nothing, I am thinking what business could I start. I do not expect spectacular success here, without trying, chances for success fall.
• House - I bought a house, half ruined, I am not sure what to do with it now. More about it later, I hope.
• Blog - as you can see, I was not able to keep my schedule: 3-4 posts a month.
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Is there anything what I would like to do and is not listed above? Of course there is: learning Spanish and Russian, sail round Baltic See, learn programming PS3, buying a dog, horse-back riding, parachute jumping, hiking somewhere alone for a week, dancing...

Probably not all, but the vast majority of my dreams. Not so hard to realize, but the main problem is: time.

It may be solved in three ways:

• Resign from point one on my list - I am not brave enough.
• Do whatever I am doing in a more efficient way - I am to week, I have to work more on myself.
• Combination of both

I am starting to get used to my current life. I am less pissed off because of lack of time. Lets see, maybe accommodation is a matter of time? If so, why I am trying to change it? Maybe the Party was right?

WAR IS PEACE

FREEDOM IS SLAVERY

IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH

     

Or maybe Mark Twain was wiser? 

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. 

 Many questions, lack of answers.